All of a sudden I feel the currents of a brewing tempest and the worrisome swirl of hot and cold apocalyptic clouds closing in. What is happening? Am I on the verge of losing my baby boy? These thoughts have got me clinging to the past and remembering… The bobbly wobbles of tiny feet, venturous, […]
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FOR BETTER Food is comfort. Comfort in food. Maybe it’s just that time of year, but this has been my mantra for the past few weeks. With the end of summer vacation bringing a deluge of clues signaling the beginning of a new era, the threat of upheaval has been at the forefront. The natural […]
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The Unburdening Sitting on my throne, I look up at the clock. 1:45 am, fifteen minutes before my cut off for bedtime and I am actually sleep-ready. How nice. Strange. It is then that it registers that my mind is quiet. No noise. No fluster. No pressure. Still activity, but there is clarity and calm […]
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My eyes are still burning from the cry this morning. I clung on to M. and purposefully sunk between his arm and the pillow to muffle the unbridled screams that emerged. It wasn’t guttural. It emerged quietly out of my chest, peeled through my throat and tore out of my mouth clawing for freedom. It […]
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Amidst laundry landscapes, I flop down, almost catatonic, comforted only by fading filaments of the evening sun. The minutes go by. My brain hurts. TV droning in the distant background and, except for an intermittent squeal of video game delights, the house is still. Two weeks now, and it should be better. But, it’s not. […]
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I don’t want to write today, but I NEED to write. I’ve been trying to ease into this…. allow the emotions to reveal themselves…. allow myself to feel. But, I know by the way I am doing it in short spurts that I am trying to control it. Is it because I’m afraid that if […]
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