SeeingRred
If the doors of perception were cleansed, every living thing would appear to man as it is, Infinite. ~ William Blake
Today I am creating a better version of myself. This was the centering thought for this morning’s meditation. Could it be any more of a telltale sign??
Just a few minutes before, I sat marvelling over the Under Construction/PPO poster I had finalized yesterday. It had taken weeks (the idea of it, maybe several months) and I was feeling mighty proud. But, when I rested my fingers atop the keys to write, the words were stuck.
In times like this when I feel stunted, I have learned to reframe and pivot. Kids settled downstairs, essential oils wafting comfort into my space, I lay down to meditate. I set my intention to access creativity, inspiration and expansiveness. And with the blazing sun providing a shroud of light on my blush pink coverlet, I surrendered.
The form of my new self took shape before me. As I breathed in deep, rejuvenating inhalations, it began to fill. In my mind’s eye I could see this new self expanding and floating, free and limitless. A newer, better self, wizened from experience, not burdened by it. It took but a few minutes. With ease, I planted it in the near-distant future, so that our shoulders touched. Hands let go, I could still feel the strength the old self had provided. Without fear or regret, I fully released. Surefootedly, I stepped forward. Then I breathed out the tired old self, and said my thank-yous and goodbyes.
During the meditation, it became more than apparent that my perception of the world and everything in it had shifted. I was tuned in to new possibilities, and now understood the magnificence and magnitude of presence. And, for once, it did not matter how long it would take for all of the upgrades to be installed, just that my optimization was in progress.
In the meantime, in every essence, I am laid bare. The current state of both my website and my Self, neglected for far too long, are a mess. Bogged down with curious content, it is a quagmire of chaos and confusion. It is not yet clear, but administrative and structural tasks will determine how the dark data managed to find its way. We are now in a state of transition, operating under a new system, a new reality where perception is projection. Step by step, clear pathways will reveal themselves, meaningful connections will be made. And, in both cases, as I strip away the layers and clean up the space, more important than the content, will be The Process.
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Written March 30, 2021
